Tuesday, July 15, 2014


It recently hit me that GG Allin has been dead for 21 years now! I was thinking the time was coming around for hiss anniversary so last night i look up his death date and lo and behold it was June 28th 1993, less than a week ago!  I remember the very 1st time i 'heard' of GG was in 1989 . I lived in Blanchard Idaho with my Grandparents and had started getting into fanzines and discovered alot of great underground bands! I don;t remember who, but  someone sent me a copy of Killjoy's( Necrophagia, The Ravenous and many other bands!) old fanzine The Metal Commandments" and amongst all the articles, band pictures, demo and Lp reviews, interviews,etc. was an article on this guy called "GG ALLIN" along with a photo of this crazy looking wild eyed filthy heavy eyelinered head band wearing mad man yelling! Mentioning songs like "I'm gonna rape yu", "fuck the dead", "I wanna fuck myself",etc. I thought he was just another cock rock cheezball glam rocker but with crude rude lyrics! Anyhow, not to long later my pal Jerry"S.C."( Real Sickenss 'zine, r.i.p.) calls me one day and could not stop laughing, talking about this "GG Allin" cassette he got and that he HAD to dub it for me! Not to long later i get a copy of "Hated in the nation"(ROIR)it and after the 1st few minutes i could not stop laughing! my stomach hurt from busting up! I also thought the songs were really great and was just AMAZED how rude they were as well! This was right before i heard the Mentors( another one of my long time fave.s now as well! ) . My Grandma insisted i got an allowance for helping out on the ranch because i could not find a job no matter what, so i worked harder and did more and one of my 1st allowances was ordering the original cassette of "Hated in the nation") i sent the money to Jerry and he got it for me ) . The day i got it, we're on our way back home form the post office and i showed the cover to my Grandma and she smiled and said, "What a lovely man!" Ha!ha!ha! Not to long later in 1991 i got kicked out of the house for my growing lousy attitude and sent to Texas! I ended up living with a guy who turned out to be a total RIP-OFF scumbag dirtball and his lovely wife( he offered to let me have sex with her for $20 . I passed and always wondered what would have happened had i told her about this crap?! )for about 4  months . I had to cut my hair and work at at Arby's which was and is STILL to this day one of the WORST jobs i have ever had in my life! I ended up being let go( as they put it ) and got so depressed i'd sit in my room all day in the sweltering Texas heat listening to music, writing letters, recording a bit here and there and playing my guitar alot as i fantasized that GG would come thru town and would be looking for a guitarist for his latest band and would take me under his wing and i could escape that horrible place! Didn't happen but i still smile at that memory . About 4 months later i ended up living in Ca. with Jerry in a house with no electricity about 20 feet form his parents house! We'd sit there in the living room just listening too music nonstop, eating ramen, and just LAUGHING! We'd take his Dad's huge truck almost every night and go downtown and drive around the strip mall blasting stuff like Sockeye, Napalm Death, Carcass, Mentors, and of course GG Allin! We laughed at the looks of horror on peoples faces as we drove by them! ha!ha! I  remember when we went to a show in San Diego too see Fear Factory( he was distro-ing their 1st 3 song demo and we hung out with Dino the guitarist!  Afterwards Dino and i kept singing Mentors songs and laughing nonstop!) and a few other local bands and i was wearing one of Jerry's leather jackets and a headband trying to look like GG! ha!ha!ha!  A couple months later or so after a near blow out fight, i ended p back in Idaho and i got a cassette of GG's old band with The Jabbers "Always was is and shall be" compilation that i literally could not stop listening too! ( to be continued )

Thursday, April 10, 2014


I find it funny when people assume i am "gay" because i don;t have a "girlfriend" or because i do "that gay act too well" > I'll say it for the last fucking time . I am NOT gay nor have i ever been and i don;t think i am gonna wake up anytime soon and realize i am a homosexual by nature . I do not and will not give a shit what someone's "orientation" is . It means NOTHING to me because i am not mentally from this planet to begin with and i would not want to be either! As for doing a much 'too good gay voice', it's called being babysat by the television at a young age and enjoying ridiculous funny great comedy all my life so fuck off . Perhaps you're just JEALOUS because i can do voices and i LOVE to do stuff like this, fuckface? Humans are so caught up in their own bullshit they don;t see the pile of feces theylre drowning in as it slowly but surely rises and will eventually choke them too death as it enters their face holes . Me? I have NEVER considered or even called myself a "human being" . I've gotten into arguments with people about this . I call myself "The Bizarre Alien" because i am from outside this world . I don;t give a shit about 'relationships' and i don;t give a fuck about bullshit like marriage . Too each their own . I don;t condemn folks for getting married but it is just a crock for me . I've been on probaly 3 dates in my life and that will be enough for me! The girl i have lusted after, been OBSESSED with  and loved since 1992 lives only in my dreams and i have not had a dream about her in years now! The last couple dreams i had about her were pure shit and i am bummed . what is the point to this stupid blog? Just another ridiculous unnecessary rant of shit? Mabe? I don;t care . I am incompatible and i probaly can;t create thru procreation and i will never know because i don't give a fuck! I see so many clones and drones putting on acts to impress someone of the opposite sex and in current times, the same sex and it just makes me SICK to see people groveling for such stupidity . AM i jealous? Nope . I tried this garbage a long time ago and FAILED and realized what a LOSER idiot i was and wanted to punch myself in the face for being such a stupid prick . If i could go back in time, i would slap myself silly for doing such pathetic things and i would also kick my own ASS and tell my past too KICK ASS, FIGHT BACK and SMASH YOUR ENEMIES WITH HATE instead of being a fucking PUSSY and running off! I am not a human being and i will always be at war with myself but one day i WILL win and i will achieve victory in my nonstop failures in life . I have nothing more to say but FUCK THE WORLD!!!!!! p.s. if i WAS gay i would be nothing more than a man whore so fuck it! I remain a mutant in this human contaminated shit world!


The Bizarre Alien. Earth. pointless but not giving a shit!

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Burned out and wahhhhhhh!!!!!!!

Earlier at work i was thinking how excited i am to finally be reading Ben Hamper's book RIVETHEAD i read about in an older issue of Razorcake magazine and my former foreman told me he owned and mentioned how good it is! While thinking about this i realized since i got transferred to a new building i have been bitching and moaning nonstop how "burned out" i am and since then i have done NOTHING creative . No recording noise or music, no drawing, no reading, NOTHING . I  still watch movies, play videogames and stay up far too late but as far as doing something original and creative, ZERO! I have been thinking alot about my life and what i've been doing . The same job for over 19 years now( as of the 2nd week of March 2014 ), doing the same "band" for over 23 years now and a few other things . I am grateful to be alive, esp. after almost dying from going into anaphylactic shock and getting a ride too the hospital only to be pumped full of adrenaline and steroids, passing out and waking up then zoning out for 3 hours while watching episodes of Frasier and Angel, a show i've always been mildly curious about since i've been a fan of Buffy The Vampire slayer comic book for many many years and have a HUGE collection of the comics as well as a Sarah Michelle Geller poster i one day WILL hang on my wall if i ever get a damn frame for it and about 80 other posters . I am grateful i am in a.o.k. health though Group Health has sent em 2 notices asking me to come in for a check up, something i haven;t done in a few years now that i really SHOULD do . I spit blood when i throw up these days, am tired alot, stay up way to late, and am burned out but damn it i am attempting to do SOMETHING and not let this job grind me down . I realized earlier that i have not written a blog in awhile and though only a few people might read it, it doesn't matter! I have to do something creative or i am going to snap! I have many things i am going to "try" to do before to long so without further whatever, here goes,... get a new scanner/prinetr, FINISH my crap for our mockumentary film SHIZZLY GRARK, finish my damn comic-book i began about 5 years ago( it is basically done excpet fopr a little work on the cover and writing an intro ), getting a new power cord for my old duel cassette deck so i can mix down The Earwigs new album after i do a few more songs for it, get going on my old "dream" band i've had since i was 11 or so, work on new artwork, get a camera, work on my costumes and props( ie. my 0777X-1 Hellcannon ), get my lil Fuzzy Miss Cat fixed and a check up for her and Lion King at the vets ), ORGANIZE and clean my house and get rid of a bunch of crap, organize my dvd collection, get new shelves so i can get rid of the old falling apart rickety ones i've had for years and get ALL my books/cds/art books/Lp's/7"s/45's/dvds/vhs tapes,etc. ALL on shelves and off the floor, try to jam with some people and most importantly have FUN and do stuff! What else? Not much except HIGH POWERED MUTANT is still in effect despite many people thinking the film is DEAD . You're WRONG! We have no money and we're not trendoids using Kick Starter like everyone and their Mother is! With NO offense to Kick Starter we WILL get this movie DONE and OUT and the world will know who/what/why/how The Bizarre Alien Charles F. Styles is even if you DON'T give a shit! Wah! O.k., i am outta here so have fun, stay pants and as always KEEP THE FILTH!!!!!!! your pal, CHARLES THE BIZARRE ALIEN . Earth. Now . Gynegr RULES! FTW!!!!!!!! 

My top shits the last month or so,...
MORBID VOMIT"How stupid can you be"cdr(You're Not Normal)
JUDAS PRIEST"stained class"cd(shitty major label)
HASIL ADKINS( various songs, doc. footage, live shows,...)
THE DEAD MILKMEN"big lizard in my backyard"cd(Enigma? Too lazy to look!)
all the JAMES BONDS 007 films
CELTIC FROST"morbid tales"cd, KREATOR"pleasure to kill"cd, VENOM - everything! GG ALLIN - everything and a buncha other random stuff! I'm outta here! Good bye til next time!